It's been a long time since I wrote anything, time to get bac at it!
I called my mom today and chatted with her some. Also tried to speak to my little sis some but she didn't really want to get on the phone.
I wonder if at some point later this year I can fly out and visit?

In other news in an apparent karma backlash from me loosing my wallscrolls I had a guy at work clean his place out and he was getting rid of several! So I dug through and got my pick of the bunch. The sad part is their all mildewy (no visible discoloration, just the smell). Any clues on how to clean a wallscroll without damaging it?

Yay! In my new place tonight (no Internet yet) and running around in my undies with noone to complain about it! Woot!
Yes, my first time living completely on my own in some fashion.

All fanmail now goes to the new address in my previous entry reply. :)

So its been a long time, I know, but thought to give a breif update.

So I had a date today with a gamer girl thats in the area and it surprisingly went pretty well for the most part.
She seems pretty cool and is good in a lot of aspects, although her taste in movies clashes with mine we do have a few areas we are in agreement on "both like Narnia for example".
She gave me her number, so maby I'll get another date at some point soon.

In other news this Tuesday...

The release date for the upcoming game, "Higurashi when they cry"
has been decided to December 15, 2009. This release will be the first 4
chapters of the original smash hit game made by 07th Expansion and will
be sold for 36.95 Euros.
http://www.mangagamer.com/main/

HELL YES MOTHERFUCKERS! I am soooo getting it! :D :D

Well so much to say now. Well for those who I haven't told yet I have a new job! Over in the sunny silicon valley even! So next week I'm packing my things and will be moving to California ( you have to say that like Arnold.)
I'm kinda nervous and anxious at the same time. I have felt like my career at mythic has been on stall for a while and I've been having to justify staying for a while. I was kicked into seriously thinking of it when me and my girlfriend at the time Shannon broke up. I then started to notice several things that made me uneasey such as our constantly dropping subscribers, wave after wave of layoffs, and the general hopelessness I had with the job of ever having a good future other then starting out someware fresh.

So I'm hoping that this is all for the best in the end and not a huge overreaction to a breakup. ( although she was & still is a great lady. Pitty that things didn't work out.)

WOOOT!!

that is all

Oh whats this? Persona 3 portable!?

With a female lead!?

http://kotaku.com/5339626/persona-3-ported-to-psp-bringing-female-lead-character

It looks like that very well may be the case!

So, I was broke up with yet another girl I was seeing. This dating thing seems to not be working out for me very well at all. I'm getting quite frustrated with it honestly.
In related news, I've been trying to stay in contact with Shannon a bit since we did fairly well for a while. Saturday she invited me to a comedy show but as I was already out with the guys I kept with my already ongoing plans.

I sent a few texts in reply but never got any call back from her till today where she just called me about 30 mins ago. It was a brief conversation where I mentioned I was starting to think she didn't want to talk.. then after a bit of me casually talking about goings on in my life I noticed that there was a lot of background noise on her end that sounded like breathing into the phone. I asked if she was ok but she got upset and said she needed to go. So I say "ok, well hope to hear from you" to which she then flys off the handle and starts saying I do not need to keep asking if shes ok or be upset because it was "only three fucking days" since we spoke last.

Ok, I understand I could have phrased things better myself but good grief, women are being crazy with me lately. :(

So my house searching is turning up some very interesting stuff:

Tonight I'm going to go check out this add:

$655 Master bedroom in townhouse

This is a clean and well maintained 3 level townhouse with 4 bedrooms, 3 1/2 baths, large kitchen, 2 refrigerators, 2 dining rooms, large deck w/grill, fenced back yard, w/d, high speed internet, direct tv, Cue bus stop out front, 15 minute drive to vienna metro and 5 minute walk to campus.

the master bedroom is 11x17 with a full bath, walk-in closet, carpet, wireless internet/direct tv. $655

Utilities not included (around $100 month), 1 year lease and security deposit required

One current tenant works at a local college and the other 2 tenants are GMU graduate students. We would prefer graduate students or responsible professionals. There is one dog and one cat living in the house. Sorry, no more animals.

We are located on the corner of Braddock and Roberts Rd. "


Also I have an appt next week on Monday to check out the following, which sounds even better:

"$725 Huge TH in fair oaks, includes utilities

Are you looking for a great place to live in Fairfax. The House is ae level 4 Bedroom/3.5 Bath Townhouse in the Fair Oaks neighborhood minutes from 66, 50 and the parkway and within walking distance to the grocery store, movies and resturants. The house is in end unit in a square in a very quiet peaceful neighborhood. You would have 2 rooms to do with as you please. Typically people have used one as a bedroom and the other as a TV room/Office. We are looking for a new third as our female roomie moved out to live with her fiance and the new guy has to leave as his mother became very ill and needs to be home with her. The house has lots of room for everyone as the house is 2400 SqFt. The main level is a huge L Shape kitchen, dining room, and living room with a large walk out deck. The basement is where the one roommate lives with his own private bath. The house has its own laundry room. The Top level is 3 rooms and 2 private baths. We are looking for someone who can come into the house as a member of the house who is respectful of the house and the people in it. Please no drugs in the house as I work with kids and can not have that in the house. Please be between 25 - 34 Male or female is fine. No Cats. Just like the title says Utilities Included in the price. Room is open July 15 for move in. Please contact me if you are interested."


Yes, do I read that right!? 2 rooms to myself! and for about the same end price as the other place! And from what I talked to the guy, its in the townhouses across the road from Brandi!

Its good stuffs in both cases, although the latter is definitely superior.

Oh and in other news last night Shannan and I talked on the phone a bit.. then I went over to her place for a little while... yea being broke up with while doing the deed is a first for me.. and kinda sucks since its all awkward like, I still wanna be friends with you even with benefits, type she is saying. She doesn't sound like she really is even sure as she was this morning still kinda wavering on it. Probably a good thing we cut this now and let her sort out her priorities ad see if she can accept me for who I am (and come to terms that I think I know what I want).

*edit* And yea after much crying last night I think I'm ok about it now... well maby not, I feel kinda dead inside. heh =/

So with everything else falling apart at the last second I'm now resigned that I need to move out of the appt.
To do so will cost me $2194.93. Of that $1621.93 is purely from having to pay the 17th-29th on the month-to-month rate due to giving our 30-day notice today.

This will leave me about $400 till payday to live and try to find a new place with.. if that is even possible...

So it goes without saying... I'm not going to Otakon this year.

*sigh* I tried to avoid this crap.

So things are not as great as they could be right now.

Me and the GF are having issues. She feels that I see her as more of a friend then a girlfriend. I feel that I'm not satisfying her needs.
Last night I was over at her house and we were going to discuss putting up a roommate add on craigslist and she was wanting me to go look at others to set it up. So I go and do so and she has a few AIM windows sitting open on the desktop with the topmost one has her saying to someone "I've been thinking of you a lot lately, call me (number)".

I casually ask her about it last night and she described the person as being an old friend that she wanted to see again. Also she was going over some stuff and I casually looked and noticed she was going over bank data, so I appologized due to reading over her shoulder.

Come today the comments bugging me again so while we were talking I asked about it again, attempting to sorta not directly go at it but she sees right through me and says she was trying to call him so she could ask him about me. Then she brings up I was reading over her shoulder too the night previous. Yea, that was wrong of me to do, and this as well but my paranoia & curiosity were nagging at me.

So the conversation then went on from one issue to another and to cut a lot out it boiled down to she sometimes is happy with our relationship and sometimes isn't, that I am not trusting of her, and that she feels even more sure that I just see her as a friend then a girlfriend.

I wish I was not such a complete failure at communicating. The conversation tonight ended on a down note with her needing to go and saying she would call me back, but its been about 2 hours and I don't think its happening tonight.

I'd like a Woman's opinion here:
What would be a good way to bounce back from such a bad phone call, or is there a way?